On enough

What gets measured gets managed. Let this one stay wild.

I tracked my rest the way other people track macros. Restfulness: 6/10. Useless. Your nap is not a KPI.

The numbers were excellent. I know because I wrote them down every day, which is the only way to be sure a number is excellent, and also the only way to turn a nap into homework.

The spreadsheet made me worse at resting. I started performing sleep for the score, which sounds absurd and is exactly what happened. Six out of ten, and no idea whether I had actually rested.

I want to be fair to tracking, because it works. That is the problem. You will hit the sleep target, and you will do it by lying awake checking the time and calculating whether the number is still reachable. The score improves. The sleep does not.

Some things die when you measure them. Play, naps, a walk that goes nowhere, an hour with no output. They do not survive being graded, because you begin doing them for the grade.

Manage what has to be managed: money, medication, the cat’s dinner. Leave the rest ungraded. It keeps better when nobody is watching, including you.

Delete one tracker this week. Do the thing it was watching and tell nobody, including yourself.

On enough14 July
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One slow note a week — a thought from the book, a story from my kitchen. Never a productivity tip. Leave whenever; I'll take it as self-care.

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